Happy Birthday, Baby

I've got to forgive myself for not being there for the seed due to my work schedule when I used to be a waitress. Now that I have the time & energy to be with him, I find him, 13 years young, with a life of his own. I should be proud. & I am. But I should be proud.  I'm trying to be with my baby that's been growing while I was on my feet serving folks drinks & food. Don't really have one to discuss me as a mother. Like, how I am doing. No one asks that, I guess. Universe knows I need help though. We all really here just doing the best we can. It seems to hurt more each time I get that reminder.