Spring 2017
It's been the shortest rollercoaster I've been on. There are days in which I feel that I am doing so amazing. & I am grateful. But then during the peak of my high, I get to feeling worthless again.
I know I've been victimized most of my life. I am also knowing that I have the ultimate decision in how I feel, currently.
I just have a pretty consistent back & forth type of battle. Emotion vs Logic.
Just when I think I'm making all type of progress & I have, very much so, healed, some type of flashback(s) will come back to me & engulf myself entirely. Talk about PTSD.
I know I've been victimized most of my life. I am also knowing that I have the ultimate decision in how I feel, currently.
I just have a pretty consistent back & forth type of battle. Emotion vs Logic.
Just when I think I'm making all type of progress & I have, very much so, healed, some type of flashback(s) will come back to me & engulf myself entirely. Talk about PTSD.
Reconditioning.
I
am
trying.
