Infinite

When I talk to people that are more successful than I am (in my eyes), they tell me how much their support group has been there, motivating them. & every time I listen to that, I think of how far I have come without one. & yet, I feel I haven't gone far enough. Still, very hard on myself. Still, criticize the fuck out of my circumstances. Still blame myself for being in the same place after all these years....

My support system has been the best at no longer inquiring what I would like to do with my life. I don't even know what they expect out of me, if anything anymore. They don't ask me about my dreams, my goals. They never ask me if I have given up. They definitely assumed I have. I don't even know how to end this post.