Thoughts to A Brilliant Mind

You know how you're getting to know me by asking questions & taking an interest in my stories?

I don't ever want you to stop seeking who I am. I need to feel that continuously. Once the search for me stops, or I feel your fascination with me is over with, I move forward.

Thinking about how some people are better off as a mystery. Takes me back to you mentioning how you don't want to figure out the magical part about me. That you just want to leave that be. I told you I liked that. Because maybe I am one of those people. Maybe.

I mean. I know I'm hard to let go of. But it's because for the most part, I've just been fleeing. Like I'm fearful of sharing more because I'll be left. & this fear developed because of the consistent pattern of folks getting to know me. The more they learned about me, whether it was a matter of them being able to handle it or not, they chose to abandon me. So I leave traces of myself everywhere so I can never be forgotten long after I've moved on.

I suppose I want my faith restored. In someONE. That a person will stick by you no matter what.
More so though, I want that person to make me never want to leave.