Detached

When you're sure of yourself & you're confident in who you are.. when another sees in you what you've learned to nurture. It can break down allllll that high esteem you've practiced. Perhaps, someone that's been so accustomed to abuse, is unable to be blindsided by the element of surprise. In the sense of accepting something new (read: LOVING), coming their way. When you go through most of your life giving others the benefit of the doubt. Offering your trust for the taking.......... & most of them, if not ALL, betray you &/or take advantage of you in one way or another. It can be so hard to allow a genuine person in, after all of that pain. Having no one to comfort you for so many countless nights, (just) to have someone get a glimpse, if not a front row view to all of the goodness in your being. It can be almost unbelievable & make you even question your self, if just for a moment. Are you really worth it? Are you even focused anymore? I mean, what if this is just yet ANOTHER person after you? To take a piece away. Just so you find yourself lost. Again. They love to see you unhappy, don't they? They love to see you confused. Don't they? In need of company. Yeah. I'm all too familiar with those people. Same people who know they will never forget me because my love was just that. LOVE. More love than real love. More love than true love. Love. That's me. I am Love. I am loved.