i'm fine
I hope this word: Healing, lasts w/me. I hope it's a strong swimmer for my current.
All the people I have told directly & indirectly to not leave me, have left. Even if it was me that did the leaving. I've never left another w/o already feeling alone. Ever. So who's got the issues? Them or me. IF it's me, did I learn THEIR issues? Have they now become mine? Are they free? Or have they simply shared the negative instead of the loving that I continue to long for? That I have always ask(ed) for. Hm.
It's actually really good that I'm not in any relationship & that I am NOT pursuing one. I should be alone. For a long while longer. I'm accepting that. The hard part is moving forward. But I will.
All the people I have told directly & indirectly to not leave me, have left. Even if it was me that did the leaving. I've never left another w/o already feeling alone. Ever. So who's got the issues? Them or me. IF it's me, did I learn THEIR issues? Have they now become mine? Are they free? Or have they simply shared the negative instead of the loving that I continue to long for? That I have always ask(ed) for. Hm.
It's actually really good that I'm not in any relationship & that I am NOT pursuing one. I should be alone. For a long while longer. I'm accepting that. The hard part is moving forward. But I will.
