yet ANOTHER lesson learned

I stay going through negative things that I promise you, I do not deserve. But you know, maybe I do. I just want to know, like I'm genuinely trying so hard to think what in the world did I do this time. & what's a bigger shame is that when he comes back to try to talk to me, it will not even matter.

What I need to wrap my head around is that he will never have the balls to talk to me.

Even if I wanted him to.

They say, "Let go & let God" right?