Paris 96
Arrival.
Glance at my watch. Almost here. Stop looking around. Just relax. Arrival time? Heart beating harder against my chest. I see her. She's looking for me. I'm in awe of her beauty. Her lips, her cheekbones, her eyes. That distinct feature of hers that she feels indifferent for & hated as a child. Look at her on her tippy toes. She's so cute. I'm smiling. She sees me. She yelped. She dropped her bags, she's running towards me. I can't wait to feel her warmth. Smell her scent. Breathe the same air as her. I pick her up. Hold her tight. Her smile is so big, so contagious. I touched her face, her arms, her waist; soft skin. She's even more beautiful than I remember. I don't want to let go of her again.
Her smile is gone. I'm not comprehending what she's saying to me right now. She looks angry. She's upset. Angry at herself. I don't understand. Slow down. Stop crying. What's wrong? What do you mean? Who? When? What? How could you? You told me this would happen. I didn't. No. You told me you'd move on quickly. I just. I believed in you. I was different. I AM DIFFERENT. You've been left alone so many times. Put your faith in me. Remember me? Why would you leave me? REMEMBER ME. We said we would take our time. Let me talk! I heard you. I'm hearing you. Just stop for a second. Don't walk away from me. Woman. Just wait. Please. Come back. Help me. Help. Me.
Departure.
Glance at my watch. Almost here. Stop looking around. Just relax. Arrival time? Heart beating harder against my chest. I see her. She's looking for me. I'm in awe of her beauty. Her lips, her cheekbones, her eyes. That distinct feature of hers that she feels indifferent for & hated as a child. Look at her on her tippy toes. She's so cute. I'm smiling. She sees me. She yelped. She dropped her bags, she's running towards me. I can't wait to feel her warmth. Smell her scent. Breathe the same air as her. I pick her up. Hold her tight. Her smile is so big, so contagious. I touched her face, her arms, her waist; soft skin. She's even more beautiful than I remember. I don't want to let go of her again.
Her smile is gone. I'm not comprehending what she's saying to me right now. She looks angry. She's upset. Angry at herself. I don't understand. Slow down. Stop crying. What's wrong? What do you mean? Who? When? What? How could you? You told me this would happen. I didn't. No. You told me you'd move on quickly. I just. I believed in you. I was different. I AM DIFFERENT. You've been left alone so many times. Put your faith in me. Remember me? Why would you leave me? REMEMBER ME. We said we would take our time. Let me talk! I heard you. I'm hearing you. Just stop for a second. Don't walk away from me. Woman. Just wait. Please. Come back. Help me. Help. Me.
Departure.
Be free, Jenn. Be free.
