'Fickle heart & bitterness'

So ima get home. I won't address you. Will go about my business as if you aren't sitting on my usual spot once I arrive into our home. I smell like him but you're so in love w/me that all you NEED from me is a simple, 'Hey.' But I won't give that to you. You don't fuckin' deserve such a simple greeting. I was out all day & all night, NOT thinking of you. While you've been in here killing yourself internally wondering when I'm going to change. But I'm not going to change. I've tried. Believe me, Sweetheart. I've tried. But I can't. For what? For you? To end up like you? Weak. You're so weak. How could I fall for someone like you? I need someone just as strong as me. But I won't ever tell you. I like to see you suffer. I like to know that those tears are still because of me. I can't explain it. It's just this control. So easy to make you do anything I want. You're so pathetic..........