Soulful Jenn

Praise

2009-12-10T07:03:00.000-08:00

You: 24; Us: 11

2009-12-10T00:24:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday, (Barry) Oso.

To Infinity & Beyond

2009-12-03T16:09:00.000-08:00

The Random Tip

2009-12-02T15:23:00.000-08:00

Things That Suck

2009-12-02T00:38:00.000-08:00

Marley & Me
Lopez Tonight
Halloween 2
Owen Wilson's nose
Insomnia
Ray J's life
The British version of The Office
Matt Damon
Jessica Alba on Lopez Tonight

Aeviternal

2009-12-02T00:02:00.000-08:00

Amazing, brave, charismatic, diligent, extraordinary, fulfilling, giving, helpful, incredible, Jovial, kind, loving, meaningful, nurturing, outlandish, perfect, quirky, realistic, soothfast, trusting, ultroneous, valuable.... ... .. .

He is.

Woman, Feed Me!

2009-11-28T23:29:00.000-08:00

I saw this tonight (finally) & absolutely loved it!

Not Having Him Around

2009-11-26T21:43:00.000-08:00

It gets lonely. Things are hard. Every day without him drags on & there isn't much that can make her happy. There's a few distractions that make the time pass on a bit faster. Yet. She can't rely on them for too long. See, she longs for him. Longs for his kiss, his touch, his embrace. If she could just have a few moments to look into his eyes, feel his face..

The wait is dreadful. Unthought of when he's finally in her presence. All that matters is him. The worries of the world don't matter & I feel free.

Sometimes I look back & wonder what it was that kept me going. When you find the ONE that can satisfy your everything simultaneously, you wonder. You begin to ask yourself what your inspiration was. Did it exist? Or was it him?

Was it.. Love?

Gobble Gobble

2009-11-26T19:03:00.000-08:00

Can you imagine live turkeys running around while you eat?

Yummy. Andrew loved the ham.

I luh'd the mashed taters.

Carlos demolished the stuffing.

I attacked the potatoes/string beans. I didn't have gravy.

MY plate NOT yours.

I didn't get to eat last year with my lil fam & Andrew was at his father's. This time, we were all together & I got to say: it was great. In other news, I'm pretty excited to see what tv my brother gets tomorrow on Black Friday.

The Root

2009-11-25T14:29:00.000-08:00

Hey I wrote this long ass post about anger. & it isn't under my drafts. So fuck me.

22 months

2009-11-24T21:01:00.001-08:00

You ain't never met Martin Luther the King!
Joe Louis was 135 years old!

Just let it shine through!

Give a hand to my band Sexual Chocolate!

& when I say he has his own money baby I mean the boy has got his own money!

Remember to sow your royal oats.

A-ha!!

P.S. Fuck BET.

Back In Business

2009-11-24T12:43:00.000-08:00

So guess who got an iPhone? *points to self* this guy!!

Acquired

2009-11-18T18:37:00.000-08:00

I like the purple better. But my bro will still look good.

Happy Birthday Dad!

2009-11-13T07:37:00.000-08:00

JLU

2009-11-11T12:51:00.000-08:00

Dear Santa,

all 3 seasons of Justice League Unlimited [throw in the two seasons of Justice League for good measure too if you like.]

Thanks.

Crazy You

2009-11-11T12:13:00.000-08:00

i love you. all i want to do is be with you. being without you makes every part of my life's plot thin. distance will break us or do that other shit. what do they say.. "Make Us Stronger" [thanks Oso.] just. don't lose sight of what this is. what it has been. how great we are. how everything is better if you're by my side. unless it's Bow Wow, jerk music, or another Halloween movie.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

At the Moment

2009-11-11T11:51:00.000-08:00

this is my fav song.

Lately

2009-11-11T11:11:00.000-08:00

I've been having headaches, not sleeping well.. all while using the time awake to stress out, remain frustrated, just irritable. Things I want to do with my time aren't possible right now & my patience is wearing thin. I'm becoming angry again. I feel it.

"When you're in a better space, your mind is in a better place."

God, those words couldn't be more true at this time in my life. The worst part is no matter what I'm going through there's countless others going through worse while a handful of others are truly enjoying life.

I'm losing myself.
I'm fighting myself.

This will be my most difficult battle.

Moondance

2009-11-10T07:51:00.000-08:00

Ever been with someone you adored, kissed him in the middle of the street, looked up at the sky, saw the beautiful starry night.. then later realized he just wasn't that into you? Moving forward.

i saw part of August Rush before my tv tranformed into a huge middle finger & loved this (along with thousands of others).

'And I'm trying to please to the calling
Of your heart-strings that play soft and low
And all the night's magic seems to whisper and hush
And all the soft moonlight seems to shine in your blush'

*how bout them KRUSTY O'S??

Better Together

2009-11-10T08:10:00.000-08:00

'We'll sit beneath the mango tree now..'

Love It

2009-11-10T11:37:00.000-08:00

Floss Angeles

2009-08-14T17:15:00.000-07:00

Best gift I received for my birthday. An iPod shuffle. Simple right? If it had no value whatsoever, having Floss Angeles engraved gave it colossal worth.

"The things we do for Love."

Reality Check

2009-10-28T16:00:00.000-07:00

How I can share my struggle(s) with all one of you but I can blog about it.

Some struggle, Jenn.

What's It Like

2009-10-27T16:52:00.000-07:00

Confession: I used to watch 7th Heaven 'cause I appreciated how that family was. You know before the girls started wearing make-up, whoring around, getting pregnant, hormones, etc,.

See, I never REALLY understood the concept of a family. I know what it should be but I also know it doesn't exist. All you need is one to stray..

As mature as I am, there's still that young girl seeking her mother. Wondering why she was no longer first choice. Seeking advice, guidance.. wanting to share secrets.

"I want my mommy."

Doubt I'll ever get over it but I've stopped trying to make something out of nothing.
Mother's BEEN gone & she won't be coming back.

Mind Over Matter

2009-10-27T16:25:00.000-07:00

It seems so distant since I rarely slept, rarely spent time with my young one.. I remember working very hard wondering when I will see a reward.

All for nothing, it seems.

We're all getting a bit more lazy. It gets so hard to do the same thing every day all for nothing. No progress, you're actually a step behind.

Something's gotta give.

Hell, who am I kidding? I'm not even trying anymore. Least I haven't been.
I just remember not giving anyone the time. Any time. & I, like most people, do not like being alone.

Alone & wealthy.