Soulful Jenn

Mos Def

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Thu, 24 Dec 2009 04:48:00 +0000

..cheered me up.

After the man in my life came to my rescue aka MrLove or something LOL!

How I Feel

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Wed, 23 Dec 2009 23:37:00 +0000

When's the last time you felt really sad & no one knew?

I'm praying for the light.
I'm just not shining today.

& what do you do when you need him but he doesn't need you?

Changes.

Jesus Walks

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Wed, 23 Dec 2009 16:45:00 +0000

by Kanye West.

Just got chills listening to that.

I've been a sinner this year, smh.

Pepsi

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Wed, 23 Dec 2009 15:43:00 +0000

Definitely my favorite.
Here we got the funny, the awesome, the outlandish & the abstract.
Though the outlandish is for another variation of Pepsi, that's gotta be my fav "ad."

Standoff w/the Mickey

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Thu, 17 Dec 2009 06:42:00 +0000

Laying down, tired. Knowing I'm never going to visit deep dreamland..- Oh! My clothes in the laundry room! "They'll" close that door in 20! I need to get up for that retrieval. Oh, but I'm so tired. I work tonight; I must get up now.

& so I rise. It's cold out so huge jacket: hello. I walk out.

RUMBLE! POINK! DONK!

I stand still. Frightened in my own skin. I see those eyes staring back at me. We're each waiting to see who draws their gun(s) out first. Each minute drags on & I gotta get my damn clothes out. "They'll" close that door in 9 minutes!!

I'm breathing in & out faster & faster. It starts moving back & forth. I want it to stop. [That's what she said (thrice times)]

Its thinking faster than I am & escapes my view. So quick that I don't even know where it went.

Hello, warm clothes.
Fuck off, Disneyland.
For now, anyway.
Bastards.

Praise

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Thu, 10 Dec 2009 15:03:00 +0000

You: 24; Us: 11

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Thu, 10 Dec 2009 08:24:00 +0000

Happy Birthday, (Barry) Oso.

To Infinity & Beyond

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 00:09:00 +0000

The Random Tip

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Wed, 02 Dec 2009 23:23:00 +0000

Things That Suck

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Wed, 02 Dec 2009 08:38:00 +0000

Marley & Me
Lopez Tonight
Halloween 2
Owen Wilson's nose
Insomnia
Ray J's life
The British version of The Office
Matt Damon
Jessica Alba on Lopez Tonight

Aeviternal

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Wed, 02 Dec 2009 08:02:00 +0000

Amazing, brave, charismatic, diligent, extraordinary, fulfilling, giving, helpful, incredible, Jovial, kind, loving, meaningful, nurturing, outlandish, perfect, quirky, realistic, soothfast, trusting, ultroneous, valuable.... ... .. .

He is.

Woman, Feed Me!

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Sun, 29 Nov 2009 07:29:00 +0000

I saw this tonight (finally) & absolutely loved it!

Not Having Him Around

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 05:43:00 +0000

It gets lonely. Things are hard. Every day without him drags on & there isn't much that can make her happy. There's a few distractions that make the time pass on a bit faster. Yet. She can't rely on them for too long. See, she longs for him. Longs for his kiss, his touch, his embrace. If she could just have a few moments to look into his eyes, feel his face..

The wait is dreadful. Unthought of when he's finally in her presence. All that matters is him. The worries of the world don't matter & I feel free.

Sometimes I look back & wonder what it was that kept me going. When you find the ONE that can satisfy your everything simultaneously, you wonder. You begin to ask yourself what your inspiration was. Did it exist? Or was it him?

Was it.. Love?

Gobble Gobble

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 03:03:00 +0000

Can you imagine live turkeys running around while you eat?

Yummy. Andrew loved the ham.

I luh'd the mashed taters.

Carlos demolished the stuffing.

I attacked the potatoes/string beans. I didn't have gravy.

MY plate NOT yours.

I didn't get to eat last year with my lil fam & Andrew was at his father's. This time, we were all together & I got to say: it was great. In other news, I'm pretty excited to see what tv my brother gets tomorrow on Black Friday.

The Root

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Wed, 25 Nov 2009 22:29:00 +0000

Hey I wrote this long ass post about anger. & it isn't under my drafts. So fuck me.

22 months

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Wed, 25 Nov 2009 05:01:00 +0000

You ain't never met Martin Luther the King!
Joe Louis was 135 years old!

Just let it shine through!

Give a hand to my band Sexual Chocolate!

& when I say he has his own money baby I mean the boy has got his own money!

Remember to sow your royal oats.

A-ha!!

P.S. Fuck BET.

Back In Business

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Tue, 24 Nov 2009 20:43:00 +0000

So guess who got an iPhone? *points to self* this guy!!

Acquired

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 02:37:00 +0000

I like the purple better. But my bro will still look good.

Happy Birthday Dad!

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 15:37:00 +0000

JLU

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 20:51:00 +0000

Dear Santa,

all 3 seasons of Justice League Unlimited [throw in the two seasons of Justice League for good measure too if you like.]

Thanks.

Crazy You

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 20:13:00 +0000

i love you. all i want to do is be with you. being without you makes every part of my life's plot thin. distance will break us or do that other shit. what do they say.. "Make Us Stronger" [thanks Oso.] just. don't lose sight of what this is. what it has been. how great we are. how everything is better if you're by my side. unless it's Bow Wow, jerk music, or another Halloween movie.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

At the Moment

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 19:51:00 +0000

this is my fav song.

Lately

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 19:11:00 +0000

I've been having headaches, not sleeping well.. all while using the time awake to stress out, remain frustrated, just irritable. Things I want to do with my time aren't possible right now & my patience is wearing thin. I'm becoming angry again. I feel it.

"When you're in a better space, your mind is in a better place."

God, those words couldn't be more true at this time in my life. The worst part is no matter what I'm going through there's countless others going through worse while a handful of others are truly enjoying life.

I'm losing myself.
I'm fighting myself.

This will be my most difficult battle.

Love It

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 19:37:00 +0000

Better Together

SoulfulJenn@aol.com (Soulful Jenn) — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 16:10:00 +0000

'We'll sit beneath the mango tree now..'