Ma' Lupe Rest Easy

I said what I had to say on 456.

Changes

I realize I observe you a lot more now. Trying to figure out the kind of
boy you're growing up to be. I don't have it quite down yet but I will
soon. I wonder what goes through your mind. You acquire so much
knowledge, you astound me with your memory. & boy do you love books.
Anyway, I miss you love. I miss your touch & I miss your "Good
mow-neengs"..

*smile*

I especially miss your "Buenos Dees Mama's"

*tears..*

*DEEP sigh*

It's hard, baby. (Gotta remember you're not a baby anymore) But trust, I
give it my all & I try so hard to take advantage of the 72hrs I have
w/you every week. I'm.. I'm gonna end this note now.

I should be thankful. Not sad or caught up in waiting at least 77 more
hrs til we hug & kiss once again.

"See you layterrr." :)

Siblings' Nicknames

Here's my 2yr young bro: Jose
AKA
Sumo
King Kong
The Heavy One
Beast
BAWSE
Polamalu
Manchild
Hippo
Baby Hippo
Overgrown sexy
McFatty
Gordo

All love :)

'09 Graduate

My brother Carlos.

6.18.9

My Love

Just can't emphasize how much I love being a mother.

When Reality Sits In

So I've been fightin' the flu for days now. & it dawned on me.

*When I'm sick, I'm weak. I feel very fragile & every movement I make is
thought out. For example: when I stretch, if I happen to touch my arm, I
think about it. If I'm moving my hair across my face, I stop at my head
& feel around. Noticin' the size of my head, tf? Anyway, this is true.
So as my mental state is functioning a little bit better than
yesterday.... I realized:

When I'm healthy, feeling positive & very active, I spend my time:
working. HOW PATHETIC IS THAT? I'm still not living life, just working.
I used to think this was okay but after being bed (cuz I took over my
mom's bed)/floor (cuz that's my bed)/couch ('cause I eventually had to
give my mom back her bed, didn't want my floor so I moved to the couch)
ridden for the past couple days, I'm starting to think that I need to
start LIVING. Also..

Because I don't rest enough WHILE I work, I'm FORCED to rest as I'm
sick. Make sense? So in order for me to not get sick, I must find time
for myself to relax during my work days & nights. Then I'll be happier,
healthier, beautiful Covergirl. Lmao. Sorry. Had to.

*deuces*

Donny Goines

Executive Produced by Ariel Borujow For Westward Music Group, Inc.

1) Don't You Prod. by Cook Classics
2) Bring It Forward (New York, New York) Prod. by Versatile
3) Whatever It Is (Ft. Mela Machinko) Prod. by Frequency
4) Money (Ft. Mistah F.A.B) Prod. by DJ Static
5) Don't Mess with a Woman (Ft. Amanda Diva & Naledge) Prod. by Dub Z
6) Sublime (Ft. Peter Hadar & Outasight) Prod. by Buckwild
7) She Like (Ft. Che Grand & Izza Kizza) Prod. by Apple Juice Kid
8) Make Me Feel (Ft. Emilio Rojas) Prod. by Kwame
9) Oh No (Ft. Patent Pending) Prod. by The Goverment
10) What U Expected Remix (Ft. Rain, Termanology, Reks & Big Lou) Prod. by Statik Selektah
11) A Love Song (Ft. Lydia Caesar & Skyzoo) Prod. by Digga
12) Closer Prod. by Dame Grease
13) Digital Genocide (Ft. Planet Asia & Poison Pen) Prod. by DJ Snips
14) Grateful (Ft. Tanya Morgan & Jeremy Carr) Prod. by Cookin Soul
15) Party Apple Prod. by Apple Juice Kid
16) Can't Get it Right (Ft. A.Pinks, Esso & 6th Sense) Prod. by 6th Sense
17) These Times Prod. by Dub Z


Recorded and Mixed by Ariel Borujow for Westward Music Group Inc. at Stadium Red Studios NYC

The Breakfast Club (Album Download Link)

First and foremost I want to thank everyone who made this album possible. Nathalie, Ariel Borujow, Juliet (I love ya'll, thank you for putting up with me lol) Jonathan & Adam (We just getting warmed up), Melanie (Thanks for always believing in me, your hard work is always appreciated), Claude and the whole Stadium Red team (My second home haha), All the Producers and Artists who helped me to create this (And if you missed the cut it's all love, shit happens), PDA Studios for the album artwork and promo pics (Brilliant), Jonathan Rosenfeld (Your hustle is almost as crazy as mines, almost lol), Im King Clothing, Sullivan Hall, Telisa D for the Myspace Design, Rob, Datwon & Jackpot (thanks for the love and support with this album) and last but not least all my supporters out there for giving me the inspiration to create this album. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

I also want to thank ALL of you for the support over the past couple of years. Blogs, Websites, Magazines, Radio, DJ's, TV, etc. (There's way too many people to name in this category) All of you helped me to reach this point and I'm very grateful for the love. Without you this statement wouldn't make any sense.....

"If you don't know my name I'm not working hard enough"

Donny Goines

Fear Shall Not Defeat Me

In my most troubled times, I'm no longer fearful. I am more aware of what is at hand & what needs to be done. I've just learned that with every ounce of pain I have felt, it had a purpose! I had to go through that to be who I am now. My understanding of that alone makes it a little bit more easier to go through obstacles that seem to stand in my way. & with that, I keep growing; & frankly, I wouldn't have it any other way.

"Don't be afraid of the darkness, for like a piece of film, it is in the dark places that we develop." - J. Sprinkles [don't know who that is but QuoneshaTeope tweeted it].

DOPE Coincidence!!

OKAY OKAY OKAY look!! lol So!! I love Joe Budden's music with a passion!! Seriously. It's fuckin' therapy to me. Now with that being said, the fact that he has a Twitter account lets me get to know him through a different level. Not just through his music like I have been. So check this out..

On May 12th I tweeted:

playing Taboo w/6 strangers3:53 AM May 12th from mobile web

THEEENNNNNNN!!! On May 12th HE (Joey) tweeted:

@FRESHCEO u said u needed 2 lay down, pause.. and it was a air mattress.. didn't think u'd mind the 30 people playing taboo in the same room3:53 PM May 12th from web in reply to FRESHCEO

This just proves what a fuckin' dork I am for noticing that we both said Taboo at the same time, obviously with the 12hr difference yet same day.

FOR
THE
MOTHERFUCKIN
WIN.

REMIX CONTEST

Remix Contest

*I'm going to search & find his debut album: Love & War.. check this out..

"‘Getting Out’ is about thinking you mean the world to someone but realising actually you don’t, they were sick of you without you ever knowing it and is a classic universally applicable break-up anthem in every-sense. ‘Cigarettes’ is about the idea of “fucking up” all the time, “In relationships or whatever. Regret & denial are hard emotions to think about. I quit cigarettes but I would come home at night and my jacket smelt of smoke, it’s so easy to pass a buck, to blame the guy with cigarettes in the bar next you, and not yourself for being there in the first place.” ‘Chainsaw’ is about a dysfunctional relationship that is more destructive than good, but can also be applied to mankind’s gravitation to the bottle. Alcohol is the great equaliser; it can be a beautiful thing, the great comforter. Laughter too, it’s so underrated, just laughing at stupid shit all the time. At the end of the day nothings ever going to be perfect, you just have to laugh at shit...I laugh at myself a lot.”

"‘Red’ is a key moment on ‘Love & War’, recorded during the albums latter stages, it is simply about putting everything down, and whilst its subject matter is sad, its shuffle is infectious. It features the talents of both Harper Simon & Sean Lennon duelling & duet-ting on guitar throughout;

"And what of War? “I’m only 26. no, I’m not world weary quite yet, I’m just trying to make sense of everything. When I was a kid there was something romantic about the bright lights of a city, I thought I would know all the answers, but we’re all just as confused as each other trying to make of it for ourselves what we can. ‘For Your Money’ documents his relationship with his adopted home. Like James Brown’s ‘Down And Out In New York City’, it’s bombast is more uplifting than depressing, with Sean Lennon channelling his father’s spirit on a rousing guitar solo and a reprise that screams of hope and not despair.

"Love & War speaks for itself and for now at least, Daniel Merriweather remains a lover and a fighter."

*Thanks to Steven "PJ" Whitaker for providing the info.

Funny of the Day

Backstory: my great-grandma calls the 1¢ coins "penes" instead of
pennies.. Now pene (pronounced pen-eh) is the word PENIS in spanish. So
me, along w/my mom, aunt, uncle & bro laugh when we say it, in honor of
her of course.. Like ohh can u give me that pene that just fell knowin
we sayin penis.. I know we're hilarious. So today..

& she's gonna hate me for it but I just got tuh got tuh got tuh!! share
lol

My mom gave me two pennies & one was soo frickin dirty it was black &
blue & I asked my mom, "What the hell is this?" She said, "A pene." We
laughed. Then she said, "A black pene."

*dead*

The End.

Smoke N Mirrors

..my fav track: #1

"Late at night when all the world is safe within their dreams, I walk
the shadows. Late at night an empty feeling creeps within my soul, I
feel so lonely. So I go into the darkness of the night. All alone, I
walk the streets until I find someone who is just like me. Looking for
some company.."

"Up against the trials of life, sometimes it aint right. Through all of
my pain & strife, I focused up on the light. Though I may lose my way,
I'm up for the fight; in hopes of a brighter day for children of the
night.."

*Cop that feel good inspiration in forms of dope beats & insight through
words: B-Real's Smoke N Mirrors IN STORES NOW! [..lol]

Time After Time

"When do u know you have found the right person for u?"

You will never know if they are the right person. It is a constant
effort to keep not only your relationship "new," "special" &
"interesting," but you must also be honest with yourself. With a
partner, you know that there will be growth. You know yourself yet
you're evolving & that's more than okay. When you have decided to be a
certain way & you're satisfied, you won't look for approval elsewhere.

You should be able to feel embraced & respected MOST of the time. I say
this because there's such things as embarrassment, failure, pain,
regret, suffering, tears, etc,. DAMN JENN! Nah I'm just sayin' when
you're comfortable w/someone in being yourself & their spirit shows you
how blessed you are, that alone makes you want to keep this being in
your life. & you want to be intimate. Again & again [Not just sexually].
Makes you want to please them because in all actuality to have them in
your life fulfills you.

Bottom line: it's only in movies when you can honestly say, "From the
first time I saw him," or "From the first time I met her.." I knew I
loved him/her. Lies.

From one's experiences they choose when they would like to involve
someone in their life on that commitment level. & it takes a lot to make
sure they are there for you. & even then 30+ yrs of being together means
nothing for some couples which brings me back to EFFORT.

Love is like your school grades. You start with an A, how easy it is in
the beginning right couples? So effortless. But it gets harder to KEEP
that A as the lessons come along. You start to question your dedication
& strength. But in the end if you know this love is worth it, you'll
continue to work hard for the love to last & graduate top class.

Ask yourself this: Is your significant other worth YOUR mind, body &
soul?

*Thanks to Twitter.com/AYEBE for the question.

"Wanna Be Loved"

Mmmm,

Sometimes shit is bad... (don't)
Look,

Don't feel no pity for me
Cause I'm going through a couple things,
Life means change,
That's the way it goes
All my life I had a constant burning
A strong deep, desire
An aching ambiguous, yearning,

For something better
For something bigger
For something wider
For something higher
And lots of regrets
Cause I ain't seem to found it yet
I've been searching around the world
Never knowing what to expect
I get sad sometimes
Yes I be mad sometimes
Cause I'm out here on the grind
Making mine
And I still can't seem to find
What I've been looking for
Opened so many doors
For real, yo
I just wanna be loved...

I just wanna be loved
Like everybody else does

-Jill Scott-

[Thanks to Davida for these heartfelt lyrics]