I was discouraged to go because I was reading reviews on how horrible
the traffic and the ride up there and this and that. I was thinkin' damn
I don't want to go through that. But my bro [my date], reminded me of
who I was. Pretty much, since when do I listen to what anybody says?
So I went. And let me tell u. I need to go back to that site and write
my own review. Because I was so pleased to arrive in a timely manner and
not deal with any ignoramuses.
Despite the fact that this humongous whale of a "girl" was wasted and
fell on these two bitches next to me provoking a domino effect IT WAS A
GREAT NIGHT and I had a blast.
"The automaker market is so bad right now, that the once largest company in America, General Motors, is now worth half as much as the cosmetics company, Avon."
*Disclaimer: it's not JUST a cosmetics company ;-)
I woke up at 5:30 A.M. feeling restful despite the fact that I was
throwing up the night before and had a major headache.
I attended Davida's mom's retirement ceremony at the Air Force Base in
El Segundo.
Had a fabulous lunch @ the Salt Creek Grill in the El Segundo Plaza.
Tried "gelato" for the first time; Mocha Chip: BOMB!
Relaxed with my Davida.
Spent time with my dad, and had grown folk talk: phenomenal.
Went shopping with my dad and helped him out AS A MOTHER.
Saw someone I hadn't seen in over 6yrs due to my lack of visits at
Barra.
Witnessed Andrew and Davida spend quality time together.
Bought some burritos from Tacos El Tio; the best in the west =P
Drove home listening to Staind, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Mya, Alicia Keys,
Brad Paisley, and Green Day.
Arrived home and watched Aqua Teen Hunger Force with Andrew.
I have so much more to share but it feels a lot better when I can talk
to someone.
*more pictures mañana..
It really was the best Thursday ever.
Since I recently got back into downloading themes [again, from
SkLXthemes.com], I decided to contact a few people to do a custom theme
for me. Finally someone nicknamed "M0nit0" decided he was up for the
challenge.
So as a tribute to my favorite lookin' clothing line I decided I wanted
to have Acapella on my phone! And it turned out GREAT.
Add/Contact Acapella via MySpace @
www.MySpace.com/AcapellaClothing
And my custom theme is here:
Downloads are free :)
".. beyond pain or pleasure, the extreme transitions of the isolated, far driven soul, the soul which is now alone, without real human contact."However.. with a once-in-a-lifetime-type like him, I don't need the human contact w/anybody else.
*Thank you for the pictures, love O;-D
And look, look what I found..
Wikipedia reports on Cars Land
I know, Wikipedia doesn't have 100% accuracy but I love it so bleh! And
Sinbad's not dead so hey :)
SKLXthemes.com is where I get my themes in case you're wondering.
1st) My Dame and myself a few yrs ago or maybe a lot of yrs ago.
2nd) My mother and I not captured elegantly.
3rd) A Lambo that my toyotee allowed to be in front, lol.
4th) My brother's project/gift for his dad
:)
Bad idea, as soon as I see someone lightin' up,
it puts me on edge and my stomach muscles tighten up.
Please keep your cancer to yourself with your black lungs,
the wack ones bum smokes from someone when they lack funds.
Trust me, it feels like my throat is rusting,
my lungs are busting, it's frustrating and disgusting." - Buck 65
♥°
Today was one of the worst Fridays of my life but it was also very
productive. I made sure of that. My anger didn't help in terms of
communicating with others but it did trigger my actions to do something
positive.
"Apparitions of angels with angry eyes appeared at each new moon. My own
ghost began whispering and the trees died if I tried climbing. The
decision was made for me...to begin interpreting real life just as I
would a nightmare."
After my breakdown, God, through my son, made me happy again. I just
love his smile. Even his grin. So widespread and dimples, so visible.
Just a joy, really. I just need to take deep breaths. Read a bit more.
My mom also reminded me how much I enjoy reading, I realized she was
right. I do have a few books that are collecting dust.
"I shot the stars out of the sky.
When each one fell, sparkling to the ground,
I made wishes that never came true."
I tell myself I have to try harder on a variety of things but that's
just garbage. You either do it or u don't. Achieve or just shut the
h-e-double hockey sticks.
"It's hard to make a comeback when you haven't been anywhere
try hards talk
try hards are kinda retarded
try hards don't know how to relax
the try hards just go along for the ride
the try hards jump"
I've channeled my anger into something that will benefit me. So that's
exciting. I'm also learning to forgive.
"she tried to hide the scars
her name reminds me of the stars"
Stars. *smile* Goodnight.
"Watching an already dead world vanish, we the banished and outlawed
wander hither and yonder like dogs gone hungry. Funky and angry and
sometimes ugly." - Buck lyrics
A lot of people are looking for the light at the end of the tunnel while the rest of us are continuing to prepare for the darkness when we reach the end.
I wish I never got into the position in the first place.
In the worst way, I got a crush on my own reflection,
for my own protection, I'm buildin' up my bone collection.
It seems like my weapon of choice is clearly tasteless.
Why do I insist on tyin' my wrists?
I should take a slow breath and then fake my own death.
I sink down deeper and deeper until I touch the bottom.
I see with my hands and I walk through a dark entrance,
Climb on the trees and sit on the park benches.
This is what I always wanted.
Fly a kite late at night, take a walk along the coast.
No matter what, I still can't sleep. Everywhere I still see ghosts.
SLEEPLESS NIGHTS, [A] BROKEN HEART..
It's painful being here, but it's unfit there.
Disposable soul with no chance for salvation? [Nah]
Standin' on the side of the road with a long shadow and suitcases,
goin' nowhere and I don't care.
I'm dyin' on the inside and I don't know why.
I'm filthy rotten, haunted by a guilty conscience,
Runnin' away and all because of silly nonsense.
Gone since God knows when and I ain't comin' back..
I just want to find a place where I can sit in a rocking chair,
no matter how far, even if it means walking there.
Maybe I'll get me a dog for some company,
Better than trying to figure out somebody.
Give me a good book, a radio, and a sewing machine,
A place in the woods by the ocean and no in between.
I gotta get rid of these dark circles and headaches,
maybe if I meditate rather than medicate.
I can no longer hesitate, it gets so frantic,
but what if wishes are overly romantic though?
The sun's too low in the sky for second guess I reckon,
and I'm used to taking chances.
Breakin' a few branches and gettin' lucky now and then,
Finding some trouble was just a matter of how and when.
Now I take notes and make boats from birch bark,
but stress still shows on my face as a birth mark.
As soon as I get where I'm going, I'm gonna wash my hands thoroughly
and start gettin' out of bed earlier.
'Cause it's curious the way I've tried vicariously
To fly so low to the ground and so carelessly.
How embarrassing, I can't wait to call it quits,
Seeing how more and more tiring is all it gets.
Been rollin' around in a hole in the ground, no surprise,
both my eyes are swollen shut, I'm stranded here with no supplies.
I need a lift.
What have I done?
The last thing I need is for pain to fill my empty spaces,
and right now I feel pain in plenty of places.
Now everything's the way I like it. Not a sound, I'm all alone.
Inside out and upside down, I bang my head against a post.
My heart's been broken more than most.
[[Lyrics from http://www.tomhull.com/ocston/arch/rs/buck65-lyrics.php but composed a bit differently due to my editing so I can relate - I'm feeling low - Peace World]].
♥°
Bilal take it away:
"As we step from across the room; Starting to ponder what we've been
goin through; What does my kiss mean to you? Are we just friends, or is
this more to you; Meanwhile my feelings groooowwww; Why rush, why
choose, why risk this thing, & ruin me & you; I want to love her & keep
the friend, I wanna be near you & not pretend; But if we label this just
picture what we might lose; That unexpected kiss the whole feelin that
brought me to you; The whole thing has got me searchin...."
Who are you anyway, and where did you come from? Dumdum, just when I
thought I could trust someone. The mask comes off, and your face fades
away, you radiate eighty-eight full shades of gray.
Black and white rainbow, you know you ain't acting right, game show
hostess, stabbing every back in sight. The time has come, thicker than
blood, and make no mistake, I'm a stick in the mud. I'm a kick in your
pants and I'm a lump in your throat and I'm the hassle in your castle,
I'mma jump in your moat, splash. Hypocritical, condition the hospital,
makes this mission impossible. Pretty much, I've got no patience left
and as a physician or doctor, it puts me in an awkward position. No
magician can trick me, or lick me with a cattle whip, so what makes you
think you can sink my battleship? Nah, we ain't family, drama queen, the
camera's rollin', show me your swollen memories before the moment's
stolen. Slow-motion Picasso, wearing the wool socks and coming with the
full clip, I'm sick of this bullshit.
Yeah, you can spell but your soul is made of silicon, you got no
skeleton, you're talkin' on the telephone. That's why I'm off the
hook..in style city, makin' people smile pretty,
Point is, I'm easy goin', no need to hide for, but some folks really
need to get outside more." - UH! I love Buck 65's lyrics.
**You had no idea that my favorite bands are The Roots and JuraSsic 5
huh..
*Don't get comfortable. You don't know me.
WERE YOU INSPIRED?? I mean damn. I felt like I was in the cast of 300
doing a one take scene, so u know it had to be worth it.
Yeah.
It's for El Jefe's younger brother and his football team goin' to
state.
North East High... Home of the HURRICANES!!!
"I just gazed the same few black and white photographs of distant loves,
long lost souls, diamonds of my most glorious moments.
"The monuments will remain and that's all that matters, but the question
always becomes, "Am I happy?"
"Now I don't have it in me to fuss over much, I need sleep more than
ever before. What remains of my violence is so precious, I keep all of
it to myself. What frightens me most now is my gradual loss of hearing,
so I'm guided more and more by vibes, I shield my eyes from flickering
images and document my dreams with as much detail as possible. I figure
I'll write my book when it's all I can do but I don't know when."
